The Inner Turmoil of an Oppressor

I feel like Allah sends me to certain people to try them and test them. Not because I am such a nightmare and their patience with me will make them closer to Allah, no not that type of test, they are not so lucky. But the kind of test that makes them realise in the end, that they are such a fool. I guess the test is whether they realise it or not. Allow me to be a lesson to you.

Even though such people are so sure of themselves and are able to justify their behaviour, I hope I am the one that makes them doubt their certainty and perhaps makes them realise that, even though they think they can push others around, fraud them, oppress them, in actual fact life doesn't go by their rules. Its doesn't even go by my rules, it goes by Allah's.

Such people who opress shouldn't think that they got away with it. In the end they get what they deserve until they reflect and realise. You tend to find, that such people are never really happy, although they may pretend. Allah sends them an inner turmoil which eats them up - they are only hurting themselves.

Their soul, it screams. It becomes weary, as it screams for the oppression to stop. They can't handle the screams any longer, so these people try to lock themselves away, away from the turmoil, they hide from people. But they don't realise, that they didn't even lock the turmoil out, they only locked the screaming soul in with them. They never escape. Fools.

And so every time I may have learnt a lesson from such peoples pathetic behaviour, I believe they learnt ten lessons from my response. And I felt no loss in leaving them, and I will feel no loss in leaving any others. Although, it seems, they feel more loss in losing me...and I think that tells me something.

Stay Focused

Its always difficult to stay focused. When you have made an intention to do something, you start off determined and sure of what you need to do, but as time goes on it seems so easy to go off track and for that intention to go astray.
You allow yourself to be swayed, which can only affect the thing you set out to do in the first place.

I guess, there are things/people that will come to us from different directions externally, and they come to us to test the strength of our initial internal intention. It makes you delusional and it makes you weak. It makes you question yourself and brings about a dissatisfaction because you let yourself come out of "the zone".

The intention whether big or small, from learning the arabic alphabet to memorising the quran, if its a good intention, for the sake of Allah, then shaytaan will always find ways to distract you from it, whether it be your children, friends, or marriage. Shaytaan knows your weakness and he will distract you with exactly that, so dont compromise the quality of your intention and the quality of your study.

I suppose thats why, the people whom are most successful, are those whose intentions are not only pure, but are also strong, firm, focused.

Just stay focused. Dont be swayed. Your reward lies with Allah. Everything else, is just nothing and no one in comparison...

Sweet Lies and Bitter Truths

I can handle a lot of things from people, but I cannot handle dishonesty. It really rips me up inside if or when someone lies to me. And you know that feeling when you just know someone lied to you but you can't really prove it? Its a killer.

I dont really understand how or why people can justify it to themselves. Do they think they are doing something good? They think they are doing ME a favour? By hiding me from the truth? Well why dont they just do themselves a favour and just be honest. Isn't it easier for them to just tell the truth? When one lie leads to another and another and then its all of a muddle?

Ok so it may not be an outright lie of saying one thing then doing another. It may be a string of twisted sweet words that make you think one thing and then when it comes to the crunch, the sweet words become absolute bitter denial which somehow becomes your fault - you mis-interpreted the sweet words you fool.
Dont these people realise the effects of their own words? They dont learn their lesson first time round, second time round, third time...how many chances did they think they had? Because in the end, no one wants to give them a chance anymore.
No one wants to know a liar, not their friends, not their family, and one day maybe even their own children. They are like thieves, they steal your naivety, your trust and leave you with a dashed dream. Can these thieves ever be happy? Why would Allah reward them with any Barakah or happiness in their lives when they keep "stealing".

I choose not to deal with them. I choose to leave them to Allah to deal with, and my prayer is that they get exactly what they deserve, that whatever they took from me, let that same thing be taken from them.
Happiness is only given to those whom are deserving of it. And they, do not deserve to be happy, not untill they start being truthful with others and to themselves.

Allah is Sufficient for you

I wrote a post a while back, and its really strange, because Im starting to look at things from a different angle. Its weird because, its happend on more than one occasion, where I have wrote about something and then I am kinda put into that situation and its like Allah is trying to tell me yeh you wrote about it, now live it, this is the reality of it, and it might just change your mind or it might enforce what you thought already. Its amazing subhanallah.

An example of this is that people keep coming in and out my life and they come into my life exactly when I need them, and when I start getting attached to them they leave again and I am on my own. But its mad because every time it happens, it gets easier. I hold firmly to a truth in my heart that Allah will bring someone else in when I need them. The fact that they leave just doesnt bother me any more, and infact, I started to see that there is something good in being on your own. When
you have no attachement to people and to life, then your attachement to Allah is inevitable.

So sometimes its just better to be alone. When I say this I mean it to an extent and not to the extreme, I miss being around my family and mostly I just miss my mum. But thats an attachment of a different sort.

For some reason we feel the need to have people in our lives to kill our loneliness, but when you think about it, most of our problems come from people, not loneliness. The test really is to see if you are or can be content, with just your Lord in your life. And there will be some who are not content, there will be some who dont acknowledge Him and there will be some who cant find Him, and then there will be others who patiently perservere, who remain hopeful and who Allah is sufficient for. May Allah be sufficient for us all inshallah.